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My Peace by Courtney Cole

So it turns out that it’s been several years (almost 4 since I’ve read If You Stay, Pax and Mila’s story. My Peace, the continuation of that story, is live!

Right after a note from Courtney Cole, you’ll find my review.


Happy endings must be worked for.

Pax Tate used to be an effed up asshole, but you’d never know it now.

He’s got a sexy wife, their own little family, a cozy home, and a successful career.

Everything is perfect.

Until his past rears its ugly head.

Pax will do anything to protect his family,

even if he destroys himself in the process.



Dear Readers,

I announced recently that I based the character of Pax Tate on my twenty-two year old son, Gunner.

Gunner is a drug addict. He’s currently in rehab, and he’s doing well, but it’s been a long roller-coaster of a journey to get here.

Pax’s personality traits are Gunner’s. Even though Gunner’s moods have been mercurial because of drugs, deep down he is strong and funny, charming and sweet. I wanted that to come through in Pax.

(Of course, when I’m writing the “sexy time” scenes, I’m definitely picturing Jensen Ackles or Alex Pettyfer in my head. 🙂

Pax’s heart is as deep as the ocean, even though sometimes, he can be an asshole. I think readers realized that in IF YOU STAY, and that book sat on the New York Times for twelve weeks back in 2013.

Readers have asked for more Pax over the years, and it is only now, that I wanted to add more to the story. It is only now that I have come to terms with the fact, based on my son’s own life, that happy endings must be worked for.

I hope you love Pax’s story.

I wrote it with the ending I want for my own son, one of hope, of happiness and of good health.

I will give anything to make that true.

From my pen to God’s ear.

I hope you enjoy the story. Thank you for reading!





I have to admit I absolutely dreaded reading this. If You Stay was a difficult story to read. The drug abuse and subsequent fallout wasn’t the happy we all want. But it made the end so much sweeter. Which is why after everything Pax and Mila have been through, I didn’t really want them to suffer again.

But life doesn’t really give you what you ask for, and Courtney is such a beautiful writer, she knew how to make us sweat for the happy ending, yet again.

This time Pax’s past is back with a vengeance. Quite literally. It turns out some revenges are years in the making, and while Pax and Mila are expecting their second child, right when his grandfather dies, everything falls apart.

You know, they always say a parent will do everything in their power to help their child, and in If You Stay we learn how Pax’s mother saved him, and in My Peace we get to pretty much experience just how far Pax will go for his daughter’s life to be saved.

I’m sure some, if not most, readers didn’t expect some of the plot twists, but I did. For some reason my gut feeling realized and I wasn’t surprised. But just how far things went, I didn’t expect.

Now, I don’t know what it’s like to do drugs, or (thank God) have loved ones in a position of drug abuse. Yet, Cole had me “clutching my pearls” anticipating each and every sentence as I was reading. I loved all the emotions evoked while reading the story, and I both dreaded and couldn’t wait for the next page. That’s when I know a story is as amazing as it can get.

5 stars





I read, review, flail and swoon.

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